You know how it feels when you know that you special and appreciated, but never felt it. Ever felt like this? I am just wondering how many people out there are unappreciated but knew that they are special.

Ever wonder what will the people around you do if ever you will be gone. Will they survive it? What will happen to them? Sometimes, people are not good with expressing their feelings but they can do it in writing.

This is sometimes how I feel. I know that they are so thankful for me being around whenever, wherever, whatever, however and whomever it maybe when they need anything but I never felt appreciated. I never felt being recognized or acknowledge for things I have done. It's always "Kaya nya yan, sya pa superwoman yan ano." Man, if I could just scream at them to let them know that I am just a human being and I got no super powers to make things work the way they want it too. Only if I could…

Sometimes I feel like I am drowning in loneliness and yet no one notices. Sometimes I feel like I am surrounded by people whom I care so much and who cares to me but feels like I am all alone. Sometimes I feel like I have a lot of people with me but then as I look back I am alone in my journey. Let no one knows how I am feeling and let no one sees me cry.

Could I just be overreacting and exaggerated what I am feeling?

It's been ages the last time I talked to him and we parted ways pretty well. Although there wasn't any closure to our relationship we still managed to moved on with our lives.

About 2 years ago our paths crossed once more and this time instead of the usually hello and hi, it turn to be a everyday thing. We chat through Yahoo Messenger, IRC, and emails. No doubt we still have that connection. Just knowing that he is alive and well makes me happy and put me at ease.

Then about 2 1/2 months ago he text and broke the bad news that his daughter got sick again of pneumonia. I felt sad and I wanted to rush by his side to take care of him and make sure that everything will be alright. But who am I to do that right?

All I know is that, at that moment I wanted to be by his side. I was concerned about his daughter's safety and of his health as well. No doubt about it that until now I still do care for him and his family ….

I knew that I still care because I still get bothered if he got problems and if he gets sick. Annoying fights with his wife and endless heartaches he is suffering. He made a huge impact in my life and for that I am forever grateful.

So what do ex wives, ex fiance's or ex girlfriends do in times like this?

It's a boy and they named him Auguste Kristoffier. Born on August 26 at 12 noon. Weighs 6.10 lbs. Normal delivery and was baptized last Spetember 23rd. A heaven's gift to parents Mark Anthony and Jane. Another grandchild to Lola Inday. Another nephew and godchild to Tita Anna, Uncle John and Tita Joan.

Welcome to the world, Little One. My wishes for you is that may you be a good boy to your parents and your elders. May you do good once you enter your school age days. May you strive to succeed in your chosen field. May you be a good and wonderful man just like your Dad. May you honor and treat ladies as they should be treated. I love you and hope to see you one of these days. I can't wait to see you grow.